The woman can be a teen or a female in her early 20s. She is a tough girl, she has seen a lot, been through a lot, basically raised on the streets kinda of girl. When you perform this monologue there has to be an easy harshness about you. You know the term rough around the edges..That's her! She is use to treating people like trash until one day nobody cares about her. So she decides to end it all until The Healer comes into her life and nothing is ever the same again...

WHY ME?

The streets taught me how to be tough, heartless, cold, how to permanently damage with my words and my fists. How to please a man. The streets taught me how to survive… Nothing scared me, nothing got in my way, no one stopped me from getting what I wanted when I wanted it. I was the boss and the world was on my side. I had parties, had loads of follower’s, wannabe’s, fans even my enemies wanted to be like me. I had all the power…

Until someone who was smarter, prettier, stronger, colder came and took my glory, she took everything and now I don’t shine. She came out of nowhere I wasn’t prepared, now  no one is afraid of me anymore, no one wants to listen to me, no one wants to be like me, no one sees me, no one loves me, I am sorry for what I done but no one forgives me. I’m not IT anymore, they forgot about me. Look at me, pathetic, filthy, and used, worthless he said he would love me forever – but – he lied. I am nothing but an empty shell.  Depressed, lonely, insecure, heartbroken, worthless,, So this is what it comes down to

(Picks up knife and hold it to throat) Eighteen years of my life suddenly ends – until a voice calls to me.  He is wise, perfect in every dimension, stainless, and he tells me to put the blade down. He tells me he cares, he tells me he loves me beyond my faults, he tells me he could erase my past, he tells me he will restore my body, he tells me with him all things are new,  he tells me he has a purpose and a plan for me and suddenly  I am born again.

No one has ever spoken to me the way he does. He speaks to my heart. He has taught me for the first time how to love and now love is with me everywhere I go… it’s strange, people I use to scare just follow this light inside me. I don’t know why he cared enough to call me.  But I’m so glad he did. When I ask him why me? He simply says when life fails. When you fail, my love never fails.